Here I am. This is me.
Define blue.
recently i've been taking interests in cooking seafood. i bought a seafood cooking encyclopedia which introduced hundreds (if not all) of sea produce, on how to prepare them and to cook them. which is very interesting indeed.
so i was hunting for fish on my weekly groccery run today. at the fresh fish counter, i spot numerous type of fish... and also something which closely resembles, what i would best describe as- "white cow liver", i think i remember those being fish roe from the book, hence i ask the employee handling the counter, "yes, these are fish roes. clean them under running water, dip them into flour and deep fry em. tasty" she said. she packed me 300grams of it, along with the piece of skate wing i chose. am gonna do "deep fry fish roe with chillies, shallots and lime", and "sambal belacan okra grilled ikan pari" tonight.
back to the "fish roe", the label she sticks on the bag says "canadian herring milt". hmmm "milt"? hence i came back, did some google and here's what wiki says of "milt"...
* Milt is the seminal fluid of fish, mollusks, and certain other water-dwelling animals who reproduce by spraying this fluid onto roe (fish eggs).
* The term also refers to the male genitalia of fish when they contain sperm. Herring milt, in particular, is used in Russian cuisine. it is pickled the same way as the rest of the fish, but eaten separately, sometimes combined with pickled herring roe.
* As a verb it means the action of the male fish when impregnating the female.
* Milt is also a term used to describe a student or alumni of Milton Hershey School
i dun fucking care what the crazy communists eat and i dun care what gay alumni calls themselves... these are fucking fish sperms here!!! %^^%&^%&^%&^&*&*. the employee at the counter didnt really lie to me to be fair with, coz milt are also called "soft roe" and "white roe". anyway, i've done deep frying them, dipped in eggs then flour... and i have to say- they taste great! now i'll have to do some dressing with fresh shallots and chopped chillies, sugar and lime.
so along with my grill pari pari, i'll be having mouthfuls of "fish sperms" tonight, the thoughts of consuming billions of male sperm aint exactly inviting... maybe i wont buy them again in a short while. :|
note : here's another online entry of others' experiences with the "roe"
milt recipes (extract from the link above)
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Recipe 1: Miso soup - soft roe with sake-kasu [ Shirako no kasujiru ]
3 oz soft roe "shirako"
1 welsh onion
3 or 4 tablespoons sake-kasu
1 cups soup stock
1 tablespoon soybean paste
Wash shirako by salty water and take aawy black string. Cut into a bite pieces with be careful not tear. Chop long onin into 1/4 inch. Pour soup stock into pan and heat. When soup stock comes to boil, brend in dissolved sakekasu. When boil again, put shirako. Add soybean paste and long onion and turn off heat.
Recipe 2: Shirako To Kyuri No Sunomono (for braver souls than I)
Soft roe (shirako - 白子)
Cucumber
Rice vinegar
Salt
Vinegar dressing (1 tablespoon rice vinegar, 1 tablespoon soup stock, a pinch of sugar and salt, a little soy sauce)
Wash the roe gently and remove any black string. Cut it into a bite-sized pieces, being careful not to tear it. Slice the cucumber into thin discs and sprinkle them with salt. Allow them to stand for about ten minutes, by which time the cucumber should become limp. Now it can be soaked in rice vinegar and squeezed dry. The roe and cucumber can now be arranged on a plate, and the vinegar dressing can be poured over the top.
first read the wiki entry here.
i've heard loads of such acclaims since highschool, when friends gathered around in classes after exam awaiting the holiday, sharing haunted stories. most common of these stories involved friends (or friend's friends) first handledly experiencing the so-called "ghost pressed", and somehow the setting always doesnt run far from 1. being on the bed, 2. seeing/feeling some apparation/pressence, 3. pressence of folk-lore related creatures objects around, such as cats, spiders or mirrors, or 4. on a certain date/occasion.
it seems skeptical no doubt (coz i for one, although do believe in ghosts, choose to believe science over bunch of supersitious asian friends :D) much because there's a publicly accepted scientific explaination- the waking of the brain before the neuron on the body is being able to fully catch-up, hence the "paralyze" effect. and on top of a temporary neuron disfunction, scientist also claims the body chemical compound call "Melatonin"... which was claimed to be the reasons of the paralyzing effect (and hallucinations?). the entry in wiki contains such explainations :
Some reports read that various factors increase the likelihood of both paralysis and hallucinations. These include: [2]
1. Sleeping in a supine position (facing upwards)
2. Irregular sleeping schedules; naps, sleeping in, sleep deprivation
3. Increased stress
4. Sudden environmental/lifestyle changes
5. A lucid dream that immediately precedes the episode. Also conscious induction of sleep paralysis is a common technique to enter a state of lucid dreams, also known as WILD[1] .
6. Artificial sleeping aids, ADD medications and/or antihistamines
well...
1. nope. i was facing downwards
2. well, was kinda tired after an early morning start and a long night-out.
3. not so much to be honest.
4. yeah, it's a hotel room.
5. quite. i dreamt of lotsa cute dogs and taking pictures of them (fking strange i know).
6. no sleeping aids (beside 2 bottles of cider, 3 glass of wine, and a bottle of lager).
yeah, i got abit freak-out after what happened this morning. as mentioned, last night had a night out with the colleagues in portsmouth and after some drinks i dropped into my bed falling unconscious soon after. i was having the weirdest dreams throughout the night (of me taking photos of some cutest dogs) and suddenly i woke up (or i thought i had, in a half-dreaming state) feeling someone was in my room and was walking along my bed towards the other end, like when playing hide a seek and you feel like someone is right outside the closet/door (i slept on one big double bed lying on my chest and head turned to one side), i swear at the end of my eyes i could see a glimpse of shadow on the other side of the bed (but how my head could turn that direction allowing myself making that view, i dunno. it could have been an view i dreamt of seeing myself made) then i felt the pressence sat down on the other side of the bed, i lay stone cold pretending nothing happened hoping it would soon wears out. then suddenly, i felt something laid ontop of me and i felt my whole body being pressed into the bed (i was thinking, "awww fk")... and then to my surprise, right after the thoughts- i was pressed again, this time deeper into the bed. then for some reasons, i thought out "oh fk, now that this has happened, i'll be late for work", so i reached out for my cellphone on the side of the bed just to check how much time i have left to leave for work (signs of hyper tension on work?)... and it was this instance when everything seems to be back to normal, and i was left lying on the same position wondering "WTF has just happened?!).
now it seems like every other stories which you might have heard many thousands of times. and i would like to believe this being a hallucination as well (by fact i couldnt have turned my head to look at the other end of the bed)... but having said that, i swear i heard, the creaking of the bed spring, twice, when i was being pressed onto the bed each time. maybe i could have hallucinate that as well. not sure. maybe ghosts are all hallucinations, or these are ghosts and scientist just classify ghosts as hallucinations... it doesnt matter if it's a supernatural experience or just some signal my brains mis-intepreted- as far as im concerned, what my brains perceive is what i'll be experiencing. and that was freaking scary.
ok, writing this sends chills down my spine (i'll still need to travel all over uk and sleep in many strange places and most probably back to that same hotel). maybe i should stop drinking. fk.
不知是天氣變了，還是眼光放擴了，倫敦最近可是美女如云。
天使般的面孔帶著個誠懇地微笑，毫無私慾的為世界添些陽光。碰上了心情也自然好了些。
春天的空氣讓每個人顯得特別年輕美麗。
