Here I am. This is me.
Define blue.
“今天倫敦下了整天雨，為已灰暗的都市帶來個悶濕的早晨。。。”
2006年，11月28日，星期二（雨）。披上大衣淋著雨走在倫敦的街上，緃Kensington Apartments步行到High Street的地鐵站上車，Wimbledon 下車。一路上細雨閒 ipod + er3 播著《電車男OST》，浪漫的交響曲完全的把周遭世界的吵襍隔住了。慢條斯理的步伐與多位都市上班族並肩而行，擦肩而過。。。每個人各自走在群體的環境中卻顯得特別孤單。今年的11月28，我一個人走在倫敦19巷。
生日並沒設麽大不了，老實說，如果不是近來朋友的提醒我竟可能忘了這日。不知幾時開始，對生日已沒設麽感覺，反而產生种無奈。。。因爲盼望的祝福遲遲沒來，等待的心情不好受。今年也沒例外，只是近期完全沒消息，不僅如此，好友們也特別靜寂，更是先為奇怪。到了公司后才意外得知，他入院了，今天動手術。。。是特別不想我擔心而交待別告訴我的。
躁急的忙致電到他手機，鈴聲響了許久，20秒的空當埋伏不了躁急複雜的心情。終于接通了。另一端傳來微弱的會應聲，輕微、卻明確的回應聲。焦急的問候也只得重復的應許。輕微、微弱的回應中帶著微笑，更讓我深卻沒法在這時陪招著他而難過。不過感謝主，手術已成功進行完畢，現在暫住醫院待康復療傷。碰巧的是，兩年前的今天也是我們相識的第一天（只是記得那年是晴天）。
今年的冬天，倫敦，雨。牽挂著你是那顆我的心。今年的願望：希望你早日康復。回去再見。
- posted by Shin @ 11/29/2006 04:20:00 AM :
common questions i got thrown at lately...
"how's life there?" "how are you doing?" "how's everything?"
generic questions expecting a generic uneventful answer.
(and to answer these in one shot- )
cold.
cold like a dead fish by the river banks in a scottish winter.
the only thing warm enough is my account.
...
you loose something, you get something. (life's fair). though i do wonder if what i'm getting is worth what i've been letting go for.
(god. am i so far from home?)
- posted by Shin @ 11/22/2006 06:45:00 PM :
Ryan 喜歡冬天。因爲這個時代，大家各自茫茫的追尋中，往往只有在最嚴冷的冬天裏，才能從彼此身上感覺到人生的溫暖。。。
多希望囘到那年的冬天。。。
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short break.
two weeks of sunshine and i'll had to, once again, leave everything behind again. as always, i just had to leave with a heavy heart (and a whole lot to think about).
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Flying SQ.
good food, plenty of drinks, great movies throughout the journey, and super friendly airhostress who wanted to go out with you (what more can you ask for?).
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Click!
one of the few movies (moreover being a comedy) which catches the audience off-guard, get you laughing abit but later leaving you with a god-smack moral-of-the-story. at this age, at this point of life, this gives alot to think about.
if you havent watch this, please do.
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Honeywell
a new client, this time in the town of Basildon, Essex (according to dad, they make electronic parts and air filters). Basildon itself is an industrial cum housing area... probably due to the short 1 week stay and the fact that sun goes down at 4pm, this is as boring as any place gets.
and my accomodation is this french hotel chain, "Campanile". looks more like the cheap motel rooms in texas where you might imagin yourself waking up in a bathtube full of ice and a missing kidney. oh, and it's run font to back by french employee (that or some eastern block people which city names are like a phrase by itself).
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Ridiculars tax.
due to the recent increment of salary + quarterly bonus + global bonus, my pay has got to an extend where fking gov. are able to legally leech nearly 50% of my income. this ridiculars calculation however has to do with the differences between your basics and bonus you're getting, hence, having a big gap will result a $%^%#&^& amount paid (probably into sponsoring another MP's 1.5million house).
i fking hate my gov.
note to self : get a third party accountant to look at this.
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Christmas shopping
after owning a land in Scotland and thus inheritted the lordship title, now i'm thinking of getting my own pet endangered animal. hahahaahha.
on top of that. next on the christmas shopping list.
1. Canon EF 50mm f/1.4 USM
2. Onitsuka Tiger
3. ... TBA.
- posted by Shin @ 11/17/2006 08:12:00 AM :
