Here I am. This is me.
Define blue.
brother and sis in law went back to kelantan this morning. im all alone from now on till time of flight.
eating, waking up, going to work, packing, taking a cab, then flying off... all alone.
im fking depress.
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oh ya. my last day being jobless. basically it's not true having to associate a jobless man with "drinks beer and beats up wife"... coz being jobless means u'll be too shitty poor to afford beer and ur wife obviously gonna run away.
am glad to finally come back to working. but il definitely miss my slacking days.
我也很想他
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曲：彭學斌 | 詞：彭學斌 | 編：杜自持
那時我們總有好多話 什麼事都可以講
我的愛情比你早 卻一直放在心上
後來你們之間的變化 我不想再多說話
經過了相遇和掙扎 我還是無法將他放下
那是多久後的事了 有一天你突然問我
在那個時候 是否也愛著他
我也很想他 我們都一樣 在他的身上
曾找到翅膀 只是那時的他 是因為你他開始飛翔
我也很想他 在某個地方 我少了尷尬 你少了肩膀
而夏天還是那麼短 思念卻很長
還記得 那年我們三個許下的願望
星星騙了我們 我們卻因此上了一課
成長必修的學分
我們都一樣
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here.
food was good. waiter was polite. ambience was perfect. ( i guess it was the company that counts).
I sat here. exactly our table.
[ka-no-jo] : she, girl-friend, sweetheart.
24 years and running. im still alive.
many thanks to those who accompanied me, called, texted, ym-ed, tag-ed.
mom & dad
phin
ryan
lil bro
big bro
zie
cecilia
sing yee
wooi keong
chee wei
seng kim
xue mei
hui zhong
eve
tze xiang
yi jin
jia zhe
mei fang
kang hong
mei shen
zhen wei
moon cloud
jason
hui yee
huang dong
shen wen
william
biao jie
biao di
yu pei
dianna
qian zhi
kai lin
song xiang
qing xiang
xiu fong
jun shen
peky
sze wei
guo soon
jian hong
elder tay
chuo ming
woon wei
sheng sheong
evone
yee sin
scott
evene
ooi hong
lilian
esyin
anne
huey chuen
yokie
denise
thien nee
ivory
sow
zing
kuantan
suilin
thanks for the scarf, headglove, hot water bottle, book, more book, shirt, hat, pen, time, meal, freaking huge mug of tea, and the effort in remembering a day out of 365.
it's knowing people like you which makes life worth living for. god bless.
il be having dinner here...
and this is how i get there. *yaiks*
not that i gonna propose or anything but da, wish me luck ;).
...pray for good weather.
| milo 3 in 1 (50 sachet) | 9.50 |
| zow zow duck instant noodle (packs of 6) | 3.30 |
| strepsils extra strong x2 | 1.79 each |
| shin korean instant noodle (packs of 5) | 9.90 |
| nescafe 3 in 1 rich (25 sachets) | 7.80 |
| OSK green tea (50 sachets) | 17.90 |
| super instant honey chrysetenum (30 sachets) | 7.30 |
| maggi chicken stock | 4.40 |
| cloud 9 lemon tea candy | 1.25 |
| maggi soup crab,cream chicken, cream muschroom | 1.90 each |
| claypot bakuteh x2 | 2.90 each |
| clorets mini mints x2 | 2.10 each |
| maggi tom yam paste x2 | 0.80 each |
| maggi chicke, abalone, fish porridge | 1.30 each |
| total : | 86.84 |
i think that more or less sums up all the possible supplies il be needing. should last for quite a while if not all winter.
here comes the next problem : fitting all these (+ my winter cloths + healthcare prod + gadgets + misc) into a 32*20*10 inch luggage bag.
hmmmm. guess i better go thru that list again.
zombies and ghosts dun scares me much, at least not till il find myself waking up with tears in the eyes. the scariest dreams would consist of a blend of reality, and your worst fear, so good you cant tell it's a dream until something woke u up... that or the point it gets too sad and the thoughts that it could only be a dream will seems clearer. then u wake up.
last night i dreamt having my best friend getting married to my relative. the fact is this occurs too much a sudden i wasnt told until the weddin and she kept having this sad look on her face and not telling me the reasons behind it. so i was desperately running to her trying to ask her why she's doing this, while having all the annoying aunts and events and crowds around, this went on for a long time and it's a very very sad process. much like those korean movies where the girl was forced to marry someone she dun like and the guy who loves her kept running desperately trying to get her back. really sad. man im sure this makes a good korean movie scene. and i must be lying on me chest too, coz the caving depression feels so real. then i woke up with the very thoughts that i should ask her to marry me case this thing would really happened.
shit. think im off the ledge. why cant i just dream of vampires and werewolves like everyone does?? (btw, i just woke up)
met up with the new colleagues at last at 1u chilis couple of hours ago. though only half did turn up, still a bunch of really interesting people indeed.
one thing to my dismay is tat most in the group of 10 are kl locals so generally when such people meet up, cantonese seems to be the default language settings. with only two years being around kl and having much of the language picked up from hongkong movies, im trying hard to express myself with proper manner. it's kinda suffocating when u have so much to say while so limited in means of expressing... normally babies would cry out in such frustrating circumstances. hmmm.
guess not.
anyway. im back online and back in kl after 8 days being severely disconnected to the rest of the world (but when u dun have internet accessibility, astro makes a good substitution for a no life couch potatos).
this trip home was disasterous. first off, ya need to house a fat monster for 4 days, then ya need to trek 3 miles braving the tigers, wolves & family to get to the nearest internet access. lucky they be on vacation this time of year.
unexpectedly, the east coast is more sunnier than ive earlier anticipated, which is kinda strange coz kl is actually seeing more rainfall that the receiving monsoon coast. the weather really taxed on me since ive to walk the fat boy around here and there under blazing sun... and since it was puasa time it's kinda unpolite to drink in front of em (that and to prevent getting impale or burnt on stake).
im back in kl this morning on a 7 hours ride, carrying bags of stuffs, well stocked for the coming winter. mom was repeating all the do(s) and dont(s) all over again like when i first left home for uni 5 years ago :D. i hope SAP is as easy as how kuantan had made it sounds.
dinner on 27th. flight on 3rd. hearthrow on 4th. and alot of things to pack. (damn)
i got this from frostie.
Which File Extension are You?
Which OS are You?
i found it pretty entertaining :D.
that's right folks, im leaving my company and today is the last day of work. there'll be less posting from hence forth, heading for home tomorrow morning for a one week break before coming back on 18th in preparation for the take off in december. will miss this place and everyone in it. but since there's a whole world waiting for me guess it aint too bad in leaving afterall. many thanks to everyone in the office for the long company and experience provided. *salute*
im off. bon soir IHS.
"thanks for all the emails and everything which kept me company. will be leaving for hometown tomorrow. take care, get more rest, and study more. ;)
good luck fer the exam. tc."
weekends. let's see.
saturday
morning : pcfair pwtc
noon : back to pj, birthday lunch with friends
later noon : meet ryan at midvalley
evening : fellowship @ pjlogos
late night : another birthday celebration
sunday
morning : worship @ pjlogos
noon : ivory at sg. wang
later noon : tecc and gang
evening : meet up with kuantan
late evening : meet cl. gp batteries
rest in peace.
here's a funny email i got today...
A lot of people know how to write a resume and talk their way into an interview. But when they get into the make or break dialogue, they stumble upon tough questions. Here's some advice on approaching the tough questions that interviewers like to throw at job applicants.
Qns: Why did you leave your last job?
Real answer: It sucked!!
What you should say: I felt my talents and abilities were under-utilized.
Qns: What are your biggest weaknesses?
Real answer: I can't concentrate for more than five minutes, hate all forms of authority and tend to fall asleep at my desk.
What you should say: I'm a workaholic. I just don't know when to put down my work.
Qns: You don't seem to hold on to a job long. Why should we think you'll stay here any longer than you've stayed elsewhere?
Real answer: My employers have always had a hang-up about keeping only competent employees.
What you should say: I'm at a point in my career where I am tired of moving around. I really want to feel part of a team, a long-term enterprise, where I can make a contribution.
Qns: How do you handle change?
Real answer: I deal with it everyday, unless I'm out of clean underwear.
What you should say: I think everyone knows that today the only constant is change. I thrive on it.
Qns: Are you a risk taker?
Real Answer: I have unprotected sex with strangers.
What you should say: I think it's important to take risks, but don't think you should be reckless. I like to take calculated risks.
Qns: How do you get along with others?
Real answer: Fine, as long as they stay out of my face.
What you should say: I think the interpersonal dynamics of the workplace can be among the most satisfying aspects of any job.
Qns: What does the word success mean to you?
Real answer: It means that I don't have to drag my sorry butt out of bed to kiss yours.
What you should say: Success, for me, would be knowing I am making a difference working with a team of people to make a more profitable enterprise.
Qns: What does the word failure mean to you?
Real answer: It means I continue to collect unemployment insurance.
What you should say: Failure? I'm sorry, I don't know what you mean. That word is not in my vocabulary.
Qns: Do you get along with your current boss?
Real answer: I get along fine, considering what kind of a malicious person he is.
What you should say: I don't think I'd call him a boss; he's been more of a mentor to me.
Qns: Do you ever get angry with co-workers?
Real answer: I don't get angry, I get even.
What you should say: Nothing angers me more than to see a co-worker not pulling his weight, goofing off or stealing. Yes, sometimes I do get angry with co-workers.
Qns: Can I contact your references?
Real answer: Sure, but they won't know who I am. What you should say: Some of them are out of the country right now. Maybe can arrange to have them contact you.
just clever. ;)
the hosting is holding up again... skipper says should update soon while it still lasts. stupid surpass.com
went for some shopping in 1u lately. when me and my bro was eating at the food court, then came this not-so-yong-sui guy whose first word upon approaching us was "hold on, dun be scared, im not selling something", the immediate things which echoes in our head is "fk donations. or he's REALLY selling something". the guy went on saying he's from advert company doing some market research on some umbro products... some dedorant shit, which he claims still not available in malaysia market, can be used as muscle relieving spray and deodorant as well.
not-so-yong-sui guy : this has not yet been released in malaysia market, and u see it stated here at the bottle, "made in england"
me and bro : (i wonder if malaysia gov ban it)
not-so-yong-sui guy : and one bottle in singapore sells for about rm120!!!
me and bro : (spit noodle) woooaaaaa. rob ker?
not-so-yong-sui guy : but here, we just selling it for rm50 for two bottles!!
me and bro : (skeptical looks)
not-so-yong-sui guy : u watch football? what team u support?
bro : err. arsenal.
me : errrr. liverpool.
not-so-yong-sui guy : oh at last liverpool fans~!!! high 5 man. (maybe im an easier target)
me : (relunctantly stretch out hand) *the guy high 5*
not-so-yong-sui guy : u not local? ur accent sounds different.
me : no. im local (and u should know better than trying to rip me off)
not-so-yong-sui guy : guess what, since u're a liverpool fan, and i like u so much... il throw in another two bottles, totalling 4 bottles for just rm50??! hows that?! but dun tell that guy over there, he bought 2 for same price. since i like u and im rushing to klcc on my next stop.
me : hmmmmmmm.... 4 bottles. alright then, il be needing some deodorant in cold winter anyway.
bro : *fainted*
i fucking hope these things aint illegal, and that they airlines allow compressed material in my luggage flying to uk. hope that wont blow up me luggage, more over the plane itself when it reaches the altitude of 30,000 ft.
best part is, when we were on our way out 2 hours later... that guy is still around snaking the next customer.
